When the universe sends you a message

I see hearts. It started some years ago, after I had moved to Massachusetts. Heart stones. Scribbles on the pavement. Coffee stains. Face cream smudges. Leaves. Baking flour on my counter. Not every day but frequently enough for me to notice. I took it as a sign from the universe to be loving and to be heart guided in my actions. Then, earlier this year after our big move to the Pacific Northwest, the frequency increased and I saw hearts on an almost daily basis. Hmm, I was wondering. What was that all about, am I not being loving enough, not taking care of love? [...]

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Intuitive Dieting: Is This My Path To Lasting Weight Loss?

The internet is full of advice and opinions when it comes to overweight people and the obesity epidemic in our western culture. There are the miracle pills and fad diets promising the holy grail of getting skinny in 10 days as well as several body consciousness movements from Intuitive Eating to HAES that tell us to stop dieting, ditch the scales and accept body diversity and practice body awareness. So. Much. Information. All. The. Time. Over the course of four decades I’ve dabbled in some of the fad diets (Scarsdale Diet, Rice Diet anyone?) and in recent years I also developed an interest in the Intuitive Dieting philosophy and devoured books by Geneen Roth and the likes. In fact, I have read a LOT of diet related books. So if I am still fat it is certainly not for lack of knowledge on how to fix it! [...]

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Sunday Scales - Biggest Weekly Loss So Far

I did not expect this when I stepped on the scales today. But this week's loss actually tells a positive story of learning to navigate around visitors and events that interrupt the routine that I am trying to establish. My friend Rachel left last Monday and by Tuesday I was back in flow. And it actually felt a lot easier than it has done in the past. Last Friday was my husband's birthday and we went out to one of our favorite restaurants, a pizza place in the part of town where my office is. We got a lovely table on the roof top again and I was very hungry. I am finding that eating less around meals out is generally a good strategy. I had planned to order their grilled chicken caprese salad which is generous and very tasty. But I was so hungry that all the other items on the menu sounded very appealing as well: gorgeous pizzas, homemade mac & cheese, spaghetti with meat balls etc etc. Oh my. [...]

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Sunday Scales - resuming our regular program, almost

... Eating-wise I tracked my food every day and stayed, just, within my calorie limit by using my exercise calories. I cooked healthy, but fairly high calorie meals on two nights and last night we went out. And it was interesting because after feeling quite good about my choices for the first two days of her visit I could feel myself letting lose last night and leaning into out-of-control mode. It was the all-or-nothing monster raising its sweet little head and beckoning me to stop caring and just go for it. After a lovely steak dinner that left me full but not stuffed we stopped at one of Bellingham’s famous ice cream places and while Rachel and my husband had one scoop in a cup I decided to have two in a sugar cone. Totally not necessary as the scoops were generous and one would have been enough to satisfy my sweet craving. Sigh. I still enjoyed it but also felt guilty. [...]

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