Today I did another BIG do it anyway: I went to the dental surgeon and had my gums cut back to create enough margin on my tooth to fit a crown on it. This particular tooth has had a crown for almost 25 years and few months ago it needed a root canal and now it needs a new crown but it’s so battered that a crown won’t fit on it anymore. Hence this lovely little procedure. As long-time readers know I have a bit of a phobia when it comes to medical appointments and dental ones are high on the list. I’ve been known to cancel and reschedule them to the point where one dentist refused to keep me on as a patient. Apparently when I was a kid I had a few dental procedures done without anesthetics and it was pretty brutal. I was too young to remember but this goes a long way in explaining some of my fears. Anyway, this morning I briefly considered calling the dental surgeon and pretending to have a cold and rescheduling. But then I thought [...]
After an amazing summer we are having a stunning fall. Lots of blue skies, sunshine and warm temperatures. But I have to admit, as much as I love this kind of weather I am ready for some cozying up and cocooning. So I was actually happy to see that it was grey and raining outside this morning! I figured this is also a good day to test the activity routines that I am trying to establish. While the cycling is probably my most effective exercise as far as calorie burn and cardio is concerned I know that there will be less opportunity to use my bicycle in the winter. I don’t mind cycling in colder weather but I do draw the line at rain. However, I am trying to walk more and I am really testing my ankle with this. One routine that I would love to establish is parking my car further away, ca. one mile, and then walking to and from my office. It’s a lovely walk along the sea and if I get another one in during lunch-time then I will achieve my 10,000 steps. [...]
I was a little surprised to see a 2.6 lbs loss on the scales this morning. This week I’ve consumed quite a few slices of Costco pizza, a Dairy Queen burger, fries, bagels with cream cheese, pretzel rolls with salami and a couple of caramel lattes. All high carb/calorie/fat foods that I craved for comfort following another mood crash on Thursday that lasted well into the weekend. Mind you, what I am realizing is that my cravings for fast food were also caused by my not wanting to cook, they were convenience as much as comfort choices. My attitude regarding cooking has improved a lot but sometimes I just don’t feel like it and I think I need a better back-up plan for those times. Working on it!
I am of course right in the middle of this 3-4 months transition period that in the past always saw me give up. But to be fair, that was often because of some major life change, like a move or a new job. This time round we have no plans to move anywhere any time soon and I have no intention of changing job, either! However, what is really helping me stay on track and continue with my program, in addition to getting lots of support, is getting more clarity on the concept that I started developing last year: Intuitive Dieting. Perhaps it is my German need for structure, of my diet brain that wants ‘a program’ but I am finding it immensely helpful to navigate this journey within the parameters of a concept that I can relate to. Unlike many of my previous dieting attempts this one feels smoother and a lot more consistent and calm. Despite considerable mood swings and other emotionally challenging moments I have not really had any major binges or ‘falls off the wagon’. [...]
A good week: I reached two milestones and registered a nice loss after a week filled with resistance and doubt in my ability to keep doing this. This journey is also teaching me a lot about the value of consistency. Last week I wanted to chuck my weekly bike rides to work - but the very same day I made that decision I was able to cycle up the hill that I normally walk up! A sign to keep doing this? Last week I also wanted to change my weigh-in day to Thursdays because I often step on the scales mid-week to see a loss and then it's up again a little by Sunday. And as much as I love the idea of Sunday Scales I always feel a little pressure to be good at the weekend so to not mess up my numbers. [...]
When I started my current program I knew that I wanted to handle things differently. I allow myself treats and I am regularly in situations where I don’t know the exact calorie count of my meals which in the past would have triggered the all-or-nothing monster. But getting into the habit of simply giving it my best guess and moving on has been a real savior and eye opener. As long as I am consistent in my tracking and in keeping up my awareness with regards to where I am in my calorie budget I’m ok. Every now and then there are sticky situations where I don’t handle my food quite as well as I would like to but I try not to dwell on it and just make up for it the next day. Overall this approach has been working well for my eating. However, I am still not completely safe from the all-or-nothing monster as I realized last week. [...]